Total Eclipse Of The Heart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes

Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart


Every now and then I fall apart...

Saint Valentine

So, its the time of the year again where we see couples doing lovey-dovey things. Some spend a bomb and some spend $0. Well, I had no date for today (Wow, big surprise there!). And I don't give a fuck except that its the only day of the year that reminds me that I'm single.

Right, so, anyways, I did a few love/relationship tests at http://web.tickle.com

And these are the results. This has to be the most redundant and self-centred post yet. Wahaha.


Who's the Man of Your Dreams?
A Secret Agent is the man of your dreams

Mystery and intrigue — it's not just for action-adventure movies. It's what you are looking for in life and love. From spontaneous weekend getaways to notes stuck in your jean pockets, you love being surprised and appreciate the extra thought and effort that goes into making it happen.

That's why a secret agent could steal your heart — he's got what it takes to change the world, but he's not about to go around shouting about it. But don't worry, your secret's safe with us. Shhhh.


Who Catches Your Eye?
Your crush is the Class President

Hello, First Lady. A smart and motivated gal like you should set your sights high when it comes to your crush. Forget the slackers or burnouts. You should go for a guy who's got brains, ambition, and people skills (good looks wouldn't hurt either). Only an achiever and well-liked beau will be able to keep up with a first-class lass like you.

A guy who's heading up the student council, spearheading a car-wash fundraiser, and winning everyone over with his charisma and charm is the right candidate for you. He's the responsible type who'll make Mom and Dad proud. And you'll feel proud when your next stop is the campaign trail or The White House!


What's Your Sense of Humour?
Your sense of humour is Sarcasm

Oh yeah, you're really funny. (Actually you are, but you're so sarcastic that it's hard to tell when you're joking.) You mean what you say, but almost never say exactly what you mean. In fact you usually say the exact opposite. For instance, if your friend is wearing an ugly watch, you might tell them, "I wanted a watch like that once, but I got the wrong Happy Meal." Yep, there's a slight edge to your humor, but all you are really doing is telling it like it is, only like it's not.

Whether you're roasting a friend or playing social critic, your deadpan delivery and dry cynicism go a long way to expressing your true feelings...and making people laugh along the way.


What's Your Relationship Destiny?
Your relationship destiny is to Find a Fairy Tale Ending

Cinderella, Snow White — those ladies knew what they were doing. And like these fairy tale heroines, you're a princess at heart who believes that love really does make the world go round. Of course, you're not waiting to be swept off on someone's white horse — you're a modern gal who's not afraid to do a little rescuing yourself.

Independent and confident, you're not about to rely on fate to give you what you want. You've got the drive and spirit to pursue your dreams and find your own destiny. And you're sure to bump into Prince Charming along the way. That's a happy ending!


Why Are You Still Single? (Ohh, the big one!)
You're single because you don't want to slow down

Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. Chances are, you've met that perfect person who just so happens to be married or planning their own cross-country move. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable?

Whether you're secretly sabotaging yourself or not, try a little exercise. Open your mind to those who are around you (and available!) right now. Then let up on your schedule to let that someone in. That is, unless you want to get married to your goals, and not Mr. or Mrs. Right.


Who's Your Type?
Your type is the Brain

Let's put it this way — you would never date the Scarecrow from the Wizard of Oz. A guy without a brain is not the guy for you! Your Mr. Right is well-read, extremely knowledgeable, and can beat anyone at Trivial Pursuit. He can hold his own in any intellectual conversation, and he's got an insatiable desire to learn. You prefer a strong mind over strong muscles and have no patience for someone who considers TV mentally stimulating.Whether it's because he can take apart a computer and rebuild it at the speed of light or the way he can recite the price of any stock on the market, his brainpower impresses you. You love to learn, and there's no better knowledge than the kind you get from someone you love!


What Are You Looking for in a Relationship?
You're looking for a Best Friend

There are many different ways to look at relationships, but for you, finding a best friend, the one person you share everything with, is the most important. Some people focus more on the romantic image of a soul mate to last the span of time, but you probably prefer the reality of making the most of every moment of every day. And who better to live those moments with than someone who's true blue through and through?

The ideal match for you is probably someone who can anticipate the next word out of your mouth and who laughs at the punch line before you even tell it. Chances are it's important to you that they'd expand your circle of friends, introduce you to new places, faces, and experiences, too. Whether this relationship is here for the short- or the long- term, you're a take-it-as-it-comes kind of person, with few expectations or fairytales to live up to. You'd take your constant companion and trusted secret-keeper over a fairy princess or Prince Charming, any day. Whether you realize it or not, there's someone out there who feels the same way about you. Like you, that someone is looking for the one person to be their best friend — both in the bedroom and out.



What's Your Best Quality?


Your top quality is Independence. Combined with your second- and third-ranked qualities, Intelligence and Determination, you have a very unique set of characteristics you can use to your advantage.

Being highly independent means liking to do things on one's own and being naturally self-sufficient. Independent people are as a whole more determined than most and tend to have higher intelligence. However, it is also true that one can be independent without having high determination or intelligence and vice-versa. Another thing most highly independent people have in common is that they can possess a greater sense of integrity than many people around them do.

People scoring high in intelligence are more likely to be unique. Higher intelligence offers greater possibilities in terms of how someone is likely to interpret the world. In addition, intelligent people are typically more able to articulate themselves well and to have high integrity.

Scoring highly on this quality indicates a strong ambition in life — the kind of drive that makes a person determined to reach the goals they set for themselves. People high in determination are more likely to make decisions easily and to have a strong sense of themselves. These types are normally slightly independent. They also often look past the superficial side of life, making them more down to earth than many people.


Hmm, any wonder why I'm still single?


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World Politics

Singapore's population is projected to be at 6.5 million within the next decades or so. Crap. I'm worried. We're already so dense at 4.5 million right now. How the hell are we going to cope with this influx of people living here in the future?

HDB is also exploring the concept of "Housing in a Park" to complement Singapore's vision of a "City in a Garden."

Okay, yes. We have the similar sentiments on this. But I just can't digest the fact that we're going to be more populated.

Queue lines will be more longer than it already is, we'll have to wait longer for things, the buses and MRT will be more crowded, I will bump into more people on the streets and yadda yadda.

I should seriously be thinking of moving out. I need space. I don't think I'm suited for city-stress living for my entire life. Or maybe I am. Time will tell.


On a sidenote, I feel that Barack Obama and Hilary Clinton are really interesting candidates for the US Presidency. (Yeah you maybe thinking heck, anyone is better than Bush) They brought up some pressing and important issues and promised to tackle them. But hey, actions speak louder than words. Eventhough I'm not an American, the war in Iraq was a tragic mistake indeed. Infact, it was a fucking stupid mistake.


Meanwhile, global warming, is serious shit. It has been landing us in hot soup. It has resulted floods in Indonesia and Malaysia as well as freak weather conditions in some other countries. The Ice caps melting, sea levels are rising and the Maldives is being projected to sink etc. I never thought about it really affecting us. Its like all these while in geography lesson few years back, all I heard was that we should play our part, because of the effects it has on the earth and it ended there. The El-Nino effect, the Greenhouse effect. Heck, they were just words and theories back then. But now, its freaking reality. This is scary.


Sometimes, I think about my future, and I don't even know what to think of. The future is a scary place to be thinking of when the present is already as screwed up as it is.



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Disappointment

Sometimes, I find myself writing poems at un-earthly hours (i.e.: the graveyard shift) and sometimes I feel that I scrutinise myself a little way too much.

I suppose most of us have expectations imposed on us in some way or another. Either by external parties or expectations that we place upon ourselves. As for me, I've stopped having expectations. I just want to do the best that I can at whatever task I undertake and that's it. That way, I won't feel so disappointed and I wouldn't feel like I've let myself down.
Because its the feeling of being let down that is the worst feeling for me. I despise the way I feel weak and hopeless after the inertia of disappointment sinks in. Its the worst feeling,ever. It ranks second to the feeling that you get when a loved one passes away.

Any hoots, its been almost a year plus since I last broke down. I'm pretty damn well proud of myself. Its been months since I last cried. I honestly think that I've lost my ablity to cry. Does such a thing exist? Perhaps its because I've cried way too much for half of my life (10 years) or maybe I'm just a much more stronger person now. Wahaha. Don't mess with me, ya'll!

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Chatter

I spent about $200 shopping this month. Well, the GST(goods and services tax) is increasing on February the something as you all know, so yeah...Plus, most stores were having end-of-season sales and lingerie sales. And you know damn well that, during off-sales period they can be damn expensive.

So, I happen to catch Blood Diamond at the cinema recently. It was an excellent movie. The best movie that I've watched since The Pirates Of The Caribbean : Curse Of The Black Pearl last year. Definitely worth your $$$!

Yesterday was the first time that I caught the inter-secondary-school-debate-show called "The Arena" on television. I seldom watch local television channels, you see. So I wasn't aware of such a show. Personally, I felt that the contestants were too nervous and were all going around similar issues over and over again. So, the motion for next week is "Singapore, a self-service nation! Local service standards have a long way to go." Well, the truth is the motion is right. We still have a pretty darn long way to go. I should know. Because I'm learning this shit ya'll. I've done my own case-studies on a few retailers in Singapore (read: projects). And the results just proves that we're tortoises behind service cheetahs like Japan and Thailand.
I've discussed this topic like a gazillion number of times. God, I'm getting sick of it.

So, besides that one of the judges, Ashraf Safdar, is pretty darn hot. Good move, Mediacorp. Putting on eye candy judges like him and Eunice Olsen will get people to watch the show even though subsequently when the topics may get stale and over-discussed. Back to him. He's hot.

Why the fuck am I always attracted to articulate,confident and good-looking guys? Omg, what THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME. One of my previous crushes was from my institution's debates team (well, I was there for about a couple of months or so) and the other one was one of my forum mate a year back. At this rate I'll never be in a relationship since my standards are "high" and I'll be a cat lady or something when I retire. Its not like everyone around me is in a fucking relationship or something and I'm whining that I'm not in one. I mean like what the fuck, right? Its just that it gets frustrating when you don't get to go out with your girlfriends as often you used to because they're like always constantly going on dates. So damn freaking irritating. Thank God, I have friends who are still single. Then again, there are many perks which comes with being single. The number 1 perk : You get to flirt with as many guys you want! Single women, rejoice!


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Random Talk

Why do people have to be so fake sometimes? I can't stand people who are like that. They always put on a mask when people are around them. The older I get, I find out an increasing number of the characteristics of people that I begin to despise. I find out more about the problems surrounding me. But, I'm more in tune with myself now than before and know what I want. I'll be hitting 20 in a few months time. God knows, time flies and very soon I'll be hitting the big 30. I don't want to be disappointed when I look back upon my years and have not done anything meaningful or something that I would be proud of. There are a number of things that I've tried/done so far. But, there are many more to go.

You know how when you get into secondary school, you kind of still keep in contact with some of your primary school friends. Then, when you hit secondary 3 or 4, you just somehow keep to lose in contact with them because you're busy and vice versa. Then, when you enter poly or college, you've completely lost in touch with them? Basically, I fall into that category. Okay, it also has got to do with my depression and aneroxia episode, so basically I just wanted to be isolated. However,I still keep in contact with only a couple of my secondary school friends. They are the ones of whom I felt was worthwhile keeping and making time for no mater how busy I maybe. If you want friendships to last you've got to put in time and effort into it, or else it'll just fade away, just like that. There are very few people of whom I can share my deepest and darkest secrets, thoughts with. To lose them, would be a life hazard. To a certain extent, they're already part of me , an extension of myself, you know?

Right, so, recently, no matter how busy I maybe, I'll always make it a point to watch The Ellen Degeneres Show and The Tyra Bank's Show if I'm at home. I'm addicted to their shows. Damnit. I'm addicted. Seriously addicted. I love their talk shows. Ellen is just so fun to watch and her shows are like small dosages of Panadol/Asprin (ya know, stress relievers) whereas Tyra is like a feminist and her shows cover some really good topics! For example today, they were covering on weird eating disorders (other than the usual aneroxia and bullimia). Such as maneroxia (when a man suffers from aneroxia), paper eating disorder, trans-eating-disorder (something like sleep-eating) etc. It really was an eye opener as I really didn't know that even men suffer from such a female related illness. How come they have such enjoyable and wonderful jobs? I want their jobs!!!

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You're not man enough for me.

I want to marry a man loaded with $$$ so that I can travel the world with him. I'm dead serious okay. Travelling around the world is one wish that I most definitely must fulfill before I die. Men, to me, fall into different classifications. Listed here are those of which I can think of right now.

1. Someone whom you just want to have a fling and hot sex with because he's fucking gorgeous and has a hot body. For example, Calvin Klein's underwear models fall into this category.

2. The bad "boy" type who rides bikes,smokes,drinks all the time and hangs out till the wee hours of the morning.

3. The gentleman. Usually average to good looking. Holds a degree, rather accomplished in work/life.

4. The nerdy guy who wears a completely different personality after work.

5. The men in uniform. They range from policemen to pirates. (meh,wishful thinking)

6. The guy who gave up his good paying job for doing something he has a passion in. For example, volunteering. Like working for doctors without borders instead of in a well reputed private hospital.

7. The guy who is in a rock band, hoping to make it big one day, but is still holding on to his day time job for now.

8. The heck-care, slacker guy who thinks that he has no future and bums around in his house the whole day aka the loser.

9. The businessman. High-flying job. Maybe an entrepreneur. Good taste in good food and wine. Version 1, will be the stuck up rich guy. Version 2, will be the down-to-earth man.

10. The sweet talking flirtatious guy who hits on girls in clubs, bars and social gatherings. There are different scenarios for this. Scenario 1, he's already married or in a long-term relationship aka cheater. Scenario 2, no strings attached;he just wants you for sex sex sex. Scenario 3, changes his girlfriend every fortnight.

11. The boy next door type. Generally has a good attitude, nice personality and stuff. His mother dotes on him and he's a good brother to his siblings.

12. The man whom you can see yourself being in a long-term relationship with. He's confident, carries himself well and intellegent.

13. The still studying guy, hoping to make it big one day aka student and doesn't fit into any of the categories above because he doesn't have a full-time job yet.


I'll update my list when I think of more.So, if you're a guy reading this, which category do you think you'll fit into? If its none of them, what type of guy are you?